The rhythmic clack-clack of the rock hammers filled the communal prison
cell and echoed off the dingy walls like a torrential hailstorm. As he
concentrated on his rock-breaking, Joseph wondered yet again how long he would
be able to survive there.
Suddenly, his concentration was broken by an insistent tapping on his
shoulder. "Hey, Joey, this rock is too big. How am I supposed to break it?"
Even though he had already explained the process to his prisonmate a
couple of times, he took a deep breath, endeavored to speak patiently, and
explained again. "See this middle part here?" he asked while pointing
to the irregularly shaped groove in the middle of the stone. "Aim your
hammer at it, and then give it a quick whack."
The inmate coached himself under his breath: "Middle part...
aim... whack." And the rock broke under his hammer.
"Good job, Ben-Balaam."
"You're so smart, Joey!"
I used to think so, too,
Joseph thought as he quickly returned to his work. He had hardly gotten a
chance to refocus because another prisoner waved his hand in front of his face.
"Hebrew," began the prisoner, who could never remember
Joseph's name, "how many of these rocks are we supposed to break per
day?"
Again he was being asked a question that he had already answered
repeatedly. Thankfully, this one could be answered with just a little bit of
numbness. "150."
"What?!" exclaimed the prisoner. "How in the world am I
supposed to break that many? I'm a prisoner here. I'm being forced to work in
conditions that are completely foreign to me!"
You're telling me, you big baby, Joseph
thought. "I feel ya," he replied aloud.
"How many rocks do YOU break per day, Hebrew?"
Joseph was about to answer 160 -- and he used to be able to break 180
before he was given additional duties -- when the keeper of the prison entered
the room. "Joseph, sorry for interrupting, but I'm going to need a
headcount earlier than usual today!" he shouted to be heard above the
clack-clacking.
Joseph nodded to his superior and then rose to leave. "Excuse me,
Nezzar," he said with a friendly tap on the prisoner's shoulder.
Joseph always preferred to begin his headcount downstairs in the dungeon,
where the new prisoners were brought in, because they were unruly and would
often distract his concentration. Today was no exception.
"Oww!" screamed a haggard-looking man with a trill of his
tongue. He was standing up and chained to the wall. "Hey, there, pretty
boy. I've been naughty. Are you here to teach me a lesson?"
Joseph snickered under his breath and thought to himself, No, thank you, I'm learning plenty of
lessons without your help.
"Leave him alone!" shouted a nearby prisoner who was seated
against the wall. He was attached there with a very short set of chains. "He
didn't do anything to you."
Joseph noticed that the short-chained prisoner's water cup had been
knocked over, so he refilled it with a nearby water jug and offered it to the
prisoner. "Here you go."
"Thank you, sir! Your wife must really be missing you while you're
in here."
Joseph pushed down a rising wave of pain and began to count.
In the very early hours of the morning -- long after Joseph and the
other inmates had completed their evening chores -- Joseph suddenly woke up to
the sound of someone snoring. He exhaled and rolled his eyes. Growing up with
11 brothers was nothing compared to living among these animals. Then he felt a
twinge in his soul and wondered if his snobbiness was what sentenced him to prison in
the first place.
Slowly and quietly, he rolled over on his side and gazed at the barred
window. The moonlight shone brightly into the communal cell. Joseph closed his
eyes and prayed. God, please forgive me
for whatever it is that I did to deserve to be in here. He opened his eyes
and noticed that his vision was blurry with tears. With all due respect, thank You for protecting me and keeping me alive,
but... He sighed and felt tears stream down his face. I don't belong here.
Through the years, he had mastered the art of silent weeping. He felt
his tears trickle into his straw bed and wondered if the moisture had mingled
with the dirt on his face on the way down. The other prisoners looked up to
him, and he knew that he needed to stay strong for them. But he wondered if
perhaps they, too, knew how to weep silently, because he sometimes saw clean
streaks on dirty faces in the morning.
He wiped his tears with the back of his hand and prayed, God, this whole prison thing -- am I doing
it right? Am I missing anything? Is there anything that I haven't done that I
need to be doing?
As suddenly as the background snoring began, it stopped. All Joseph
could hear were crickets chirping.
That's the sound of Me not
complaining, God replied.
Joseph chuckled very quietly. That's what had kept him going these past
several years: his God. And his dreams.
His dreams... his brothers... his father... the stories they shared...
the home they had built together... the rich foods and fine clothes... his old
way of life... before he became dead to his family and vice versa...
It all came swirling back to him and erupted as a fresh wave of tears
that flooded into his eyes. How he missed his father! He knew he would never
see him again. But his brothers... years later, he could still never figure out
how and why they had treated him the way they did.
Then he found himself in that same old spot in his mind that he
couldn't easily escape from once he had fallen in. How dare they, he thought to himself as he squinched his eyes shut
and gripped a fistful of straw. They had
no right to do what they did. He knew that it was no use holding on to the
past, and he knew that he was being useful where he was, but still... This was
a prison. Would he ever see freedom?
Joseph opened his eyes and mopped his tears from his face. What IF I were to be free someday? he
thought. I'd like to give them a piece of
my mind. Give them a taste of their own medicine. Oh, hello there, caravan of
Hebrews traveling through Egypt. Would you like to buy a coat of many colors?
Here, step inside my office. Oh, I forgot to tell you that my office is INSIDE
A FREAKIN' PIT! Here. Let me show you what prison life is like. Would you like
to drink some water out of my silver goblet?
Joseph cackled silently within himself and then had a terrible taste in
his mouth. He breathed deeply and closed his eyes. That isn't Your way, is it? he prayed.
No, God replied. Stick with Me. You'll be fine.
The next morning while Joseph aimed to fulfill his quota, his rock hammer
clack-clacked quickly and methodically as he bent over his work. His
thoughts went back to the previous day to his conversation with the short-chained prisoner, who
had assumed that he had a wife. No, I'm
not married, Joseph thought, but I have a great pickup line. Hey, baby, I unjustly did time in prison for
attempted rape. Wanna go eat some falafel? He chuckled quietly to himself.
The little humorous things like that had helped him survive emotionally through the years.
His thoughts returned to his father and the times he had spent with
him. He always knew he was his father's favorite. His mother died when he was
very young, but his father would tell him stories of how he met his mother --
and how he worked for his grandfather for seven years before he could marry his
mother.
Seven years was a long time. But waiting for your dream to come true
was always worth the wait -- this was a lesson that he learned from his father.
Suddenly, his thoughts were interrupted by an insistent tapping on his
shoulder. "Hey, Joey, this rock is too big. How am I supposed to break
it?"
Joseph suppressed a frustrated sigh and re-explained the process as
patiently as he could.
Ben-Balaam coached himself quietly under his breath: "Middle
part... aim... whack."
"Good job."
Suddenly, Nezzar waved his hand in front of Joseph's face.
"Hebrew, how many of these rocks are we supposed to break per
day?"
Joseph felt both of his fists clench. He unclenched them while he took
a deep breath. "150."
"What?! That's too many!"
Ben-Balaam screamed and dropped his hammer, suddenly snapping Joseph
out of his déjà vu.
Instantly, Joseph ran and found the bandages. The keeper of the prison
had assigned him the task of mending the inmates' wounds, and he had gotten
pretty swift at it.
"Thanks, Joey," Ben-Balaam said as he slowly bent his
bandaged thumb. "I guess it was this stupid rock. Maybe it isn't a rock at
all. I think it's a potato." He held out the rock for Joseph to
see.
"Um, that's not a potato. It's a rock covered with moss and
dirt."
"Oh. You're so smart!"
Joseph looked over at Nezzar, who was working cautiously and shaking
his head.
"Joey, have you ever hurt yourself so badly that you blacked
out?" asked Ben-Balaam. "It's kind of like a bad dream."
"Dream?" asked Nezzar with a scoff. "I'll tell you about
a bad dream. Last night, I dreamed that there was this vine -- it had three
branches that budded and sprouted grapes. In the dream, I had Pharaoh's cup in
my hand. I squeezed the grapes into Pharaoh's cup, and then I gave the cup to
Pharaoh." Nezzar shuddered. "It startled me, because I haven't seen Pharaoh since he threw me in here. I told my cellmates about my dream, but they couldn't figure out what it means. Isn't that weird?"
"I had a weird dream last night, too!" exclaimed Ben-Balaam.
"Only, in my dream, I had three white baskets on my head. The basket on
top had lots of goodies in it, and the birds ate them all."
"But what does it mean?" Nezzar asked.
"I don't know," Ben-Balaam replied. "I asked a couple of
guys about it, and they told me to shut up." His eyes sparkled as he
looked into Joseph's face. "What do you think, Joey? I bet you're so smart
that you could figure out both our dreams."
Nezzar gently punched Joseph on the shoulder. "For once, he has a
good idea. Do you know how to interpret dreams, Hebrew?"
Joseph pensively rested his chin on his fist. "I don't, but God
does." He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. Then he opened his eyes
and knew how to proceed. "Nezzar, you were Pharaoh's chief butler, weren't
you?"
Nezzar nodded.
"The three branches in your dream symbolize three days. So, in
three days, Pharaoh will release you from prison and restore you back to your
old job."
Joseph felt a familiar tapping on his shoulder. "What about my
dream?" asked Ben-Balaam.
"I, uh, wish I had better news, my friend. You were Pharaoh's
chief baker, right?"
Ben-Balaam slowly nodded his childlike head.
"In your dream, the three baskets symbolize three days. So, in
three days, Pharaoh will chop your head off and hang you -- "
"Huh?!" Ben-Balaam exclaimed.
"And the birds will eat you."
Nezzar laughed.
"Shut up, butler!" Ben-Balaam exclaimed. "Joey, maybe
you're not so smart after all."
Three days later -- three days of the same grind of repetitive
question-asking, head-counting, and nighttime-weeping -- Pharaoh threw himself
a grand birthday party. The revelry was so loud that the prisoners could hear
it over the rhythmic clack-clack of their rock hammers. A few of the
men abandoned their posts and began to peer outside through a nearby barred
window.
"Hey, men, we really need to get back to work," Joseph
announced as soon as he noticed the distraction.
Suddenly, the prison doors opened and the keeper of the prison stood in
the sunlight like an Egyptian godlike warrior. "Pharaoh has called for
the release of his servants! Everyone listen carefully for your names." He
spent the next few moments reading names that were written on a long papyrus
sheet.
Is this it? Joseph thought. Did my old boss Potiphar finally realize his
mistake and pull some strings?
The keeper of the prison finished calling out names and rolled up the
papyrus sheet. The freed prisoners scrambled to collect their things and exuberantly
allowed the guards to unlock their chains. The ones whose names weren't called,
including Joseph, observed the scene with a strange mixture of gladness and
shock.
"Bye, Joey!" Ben-Balaam exclaimed with a warm hug.
"Congratulations, my friend!"
"Hebrew!" the butler exclaimed with a wave of his hand. As he
turned to walk out of the prison door, Joseph clasped a hand on his shoulder to
stop him.
"Joseph," he told the butler. "My name is Joseph."
Nezzar turned around and repeated with a warm smile, "Joseph. Thank
you for everything."
The two former prisonmates who had been placed in Joseph's care were whisked
away as quickly as they had come. With a deep, quiet sigh, Joseph knew that he
may never see them again, and he felt the similar frustration rise within
himself.
Such was the rhythm of the prison: Easy in, easy out. Come and go. Everybody
always left. Nobody put down roots. Nobody stayed.
Except Joseph.
As the guards slammed and locked the prison door shut -- giving the
inmates the last full glimpse of sunlight that they would see until a stranger would
decide that they would get to see it again -- Joseph whispered, "Don't
forget me."